It has been more than five years since I wrote here...but in these five years, I've returned to this blog many times...like a wanderer returns home...maybe with the hope for inspiration to start writing again...
I miss spending my solitary evenings, just me with my thoughts, where I used to be alone but never lonely, a feeling of peace & tranquility...where my ideas and my thoughts flew effortlessly, where my mind & my soul were inseparable...where my imagination knew no bounds...trying to pen down a piece of my imagination...just for me...
I miss that time when it was just me with my thoughts, where I used to be alone but never lonely...I used to write whatever comes to my mind...sometimes, it was funny...sometimes, it was thought-provoking...mostly, it only made sense to me...sometimes it was plain gibberish...but, it was always sincere...
I like being in that phase, in that place, at that time...looking for inspiration from the past 'me'...maybe I'm dwelling on my past...or maybe I am just passing time...I like that person...the past 'me'...he has a huge potential, he can accomplish so much...he is amazing...I am in awe...maybe a little jealous...
And today, years later, I sit here, just me, with my thoughts...alone but not lonely
...but there is a difference today...I feel uneasy...I'm not sure why...my thoughts are jumbled, my ideas are restricted, my imagination has been defined by a range...
I feel like I'm in a box...
There is a hint of negative energy...it is engulfing me like a fog...I'm not able to see clearly, I'm not able to think clearly...
This person who is very close to me noticed my discomfort & asked me...but I couldn't express myself...I couldn't explain what I am feeling...I need an outlet...I need to find my strength...
I look around and find an old diary lying on a dusty shelf...it is the diary where I used to write my thoughts years ago...it is full of my raw thoughts and ideas...I look around frantically to find a pen...I open a fresh leaf and start writing...
"It has been more than five years since I wrote here..."
I feel like I've opened the box...
I miss spending my solitary evenings, just me with my thoughts, where I used to be alone but never lonely, a feeling of peace & tranquility...where my ideas and my thoughts flew effortlessly, where my mind & my soul were inseparable...where my imagination knew no bounds...trying to pen down a piece of my imagination...just for me...
I miss that time when it was just me with my thoughts, where I used to be alone but never lonely...I used to write whatever comes to my mind...sometimes, it was funny...sometimes, it was thought-provoking...mostly, it only made sense to me...sometimes it was plain gibberish...but, it was always sincere...
I like being in that phase, in that place, at that time...looking for inspiration from the past 'me'...maybe I'm dwelling on my past...or maybe I am just passing time...I like that person...the past 'me'...he has a huge potential, he can accomplish so much...he is amazing...I am in awe...maybe a little jealous...
And today, years later, I sit here, just me, with my thoughts...alone but not lonely
...but there is a difference today...I feel uneasy...I'm not sure why...my thoughts are jumbled, my ideas are restricted, my imagination has been defined by a range...
I feel like I'm in a box...
There is a hint of negative energy...it is engulfing me like a fog...I'm not able to see clearly, I'm not able to think clearly...
This person who is very close to me noticed my discomfort & asked me...but I couldn't express myself...I couldn't explain what I am feeling...I need an outlet...I need to find my strength...
I look around and find an old diary lying on a dusty shelf...it is the diary where I used to write my thoughts years ago...it is full of my raw thoughts and ideas...I look around frantically to find a pen...I open a fresh leaf and start writing...
"It has been more than five years since I wrote here..."
I feel like I've opened the box...
It's wonderfully written dear... Totally loved it. Could relate it to my life too...
ReplyDeleteSuperb work.
ReplyDeleteSame situation is with me as well. It's been so long I have visited my blog.
I need to start writing again.
Same with me.
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